So...today in meeting I think I pretty much spent the entire time writing amazing blog posts in my head. Perhaps this was not a good use of my (or the meeting's) time, but now I cannot remember one single thing I was thinking about. It's a little sad. I'm sure they were wonderful.
Oh! I remember something.
Because I was noticing myself writing blog posts in my head instead of paying attention to God and/or centering or whatever you want to call it, I started thinking about how I wasn't expecting anything to happen in that hour. I started thinking about how I really have begun to enjoy that community of people, but pretty much it seems like for a lot of people the hour of meeting is sort of obligatory, before the time to hang out with people over tasty snacks. Or else it's an hour of solace in a crazy week, and there is plenty of time during announcements at the end of meeting to slip out the back without having to talk to anyone.
But what is the point of coming to meeting each week? Is it just to hang out with people afterwards? Is it just to be still for a while? These things are good: I love the stillness and I love the people who have become a community here. But isn't there something more? Why do we come to the Meetinghouse for our silence--why not just stay home? Or why not just join some group with similar interests--say a peace group of some sort--and socialize with them? What about listening together, what about doing the hard work of discernment as to what we're called to do, here and now, in this community, to make life look more like the Kingdom of God for those around us?
How do we break out of our self-imposed liturgy of stillness?
I'm just as guilty as anyone else--we're totally not involved in anything the meeting does besides a couple hours on Sunday morning. So maybe I'm only speaking of myself. But I think not. (And this doesn't just go for unprogrammed Friends, although that is the community I'm in right now.)
Well, that was depressing. I hope you have a nice evening!